Thursday, September 20, 2012

F O R T Y

It's only a number.

Forty is the new twenty.

You're only as old as you feel.

Except lately I've been feeling like I'm falling apart.  I have the hypothyroidism to deal with.  I swore I wasn't going to go into my forties weighing as much as I do, but thanks to this little diagnosis my wishes and efforts just didn't work out the way I wanted.  I tweaked something in my back a month ago and now the pain comes and goes.  I have tendinitis which gets aggravated from random work...anything from housework to gardening.  Oh yeah, and then there's the sun allergy which prevents me from enjoying the outdoors.  I worry about everything.  I worry that worrying about things draws things to me.  And now I have convinced myself I have reached the age to which "breast health" is a bigger issue.

I cried on Hubby's shoulder tonight.  I sobbed and even then I couldn't let everything go.  He reminded me that there are plenty of people in worse situations than me.  I know that's true.  

I think being sick this week just messed with my head.  I was lonely and sick.

*shrugs*

This is not how I wanted to remember turning 40.

Do you remember two years ago?  I celebrated my birthday in the Minor Emergency Clinic.  I had an allergic reaction to something unknown and was covered in hives.

Good times.

LOL

A memorable birthday from my childhood is my 10th birthday.  I was able to sign out a ukulele from our school music class for the weekend.  This was terribly exciting to me.  It was also one of the last times I remember both Grandma and Grandpa Dean being there for my birthday.  They gave me a 10 speed orange bicycle.....you know, the kind with the curvy handle bars.

Last Saturday, my In Law's hosted a family barbecue.  We had hamburgers, coleslaw, cucumber salad, tomato salad and baked beans.  We sat in the yard in lawn chairs while different people ribbed me about turning forty.  When the weather cooled off we went inside.  There was a chocolate layer cake and a chorus of Happy Birthday.  I told them I was glad they didn't put candles on the cake because it would burn the house down!  Everyone laughed.  I received a gift of a fuzzy white blanket and a new set of drinking glasses which we desperately needed but had already bought for ourselves.  It was fun.  I felt appreciated by people who don't usually show those types of emotions.

Hubby tells me that my present might arrive late.  All I know is that it's arriving from Amazon.  We have reservations at an Italian restaurant for Saturday 5pm.  Il Salici boasts authentic Italian cuisine.  

I have it on good authority that they have cannoli!!!  Birthday Cannoli.  Happy Birthday to me!

18 comments:

  1. Ha, I'm not 40, I'm 45! I didn't think I'd have arthritis in my neck and back so soon, but thar it be!

    I don't want to jinx the cannoli by saying "finally... cannoli!" so I'll just say enjoy the time out with your hubby and can't wait to find out what Amazon is sending.

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    1. And sometimes you do feel perfectly good and all you do is stand up to walk away and you pull something. Ugh!

      I will blog about what Amazon sends. Honest.

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  2. I think you should stop for a moment and think what that 10 year old Sandra would think about this 40 year old woman and all of her accomplishments through the years. Just a moment though because you have other things to do for now__like have a HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

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    1. I think the 10 year old me would like the 40 year old me. I think I'm pretty awesome. I just don't feel that awesome.

      Thanks! It will be a good birthday. I know it.

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  3. *wishing I could +1 Rei and Goldie*..

    You'll have a fantastic birthday Sandra you will. Forty is just a number and all that yuck stuff is just something you have to deal with sure it sucks, but it's not about being forty it's just about life. And you're a fantastically amazing person who has a lot going for her and a lot to look forward to. :)

    AND argh! I hope Amazon doesn't take too long! I'm dying to find out what it is!!!

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    1. I know all that....honest. Sometimes it just all comes crashing down. Sometimes I'm tired of being strong. Why do I have to be so dang strong all the time? You know?

      I think Amazon is sending either an iPod, an iPhone or a Cabana Boy.

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    2. CABANA BOY!!!.... I did hear they are on backorder right now.

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    3. iCabana lol Apple thinks of everything.

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  4. Happy Birthday!! I know exactly what you mean by being a bit on the depressed side due to health issues..keep on keeping on :)

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    1. I'm pretty sure I'm going to live. Worrying wears a person down. I need to stop that silliness!

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  5. I'd rather be 40 than farty, growing older than the alternative, and I'd rather be eating cannoli.

    That last one would make a good tshirt.

    Happy birthday, Sandra. Keep smiling.

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    1. I've been farty too lol I'd rather be on this side of the daisies that's for sure. I think I just had a giant case of feeling sorry for myself.

      I'd rather be eating cannoli would be an AWESOME tee shirt!!!!

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  6. I remember 40...

    Happy Birthday Girlie!!!

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    1. Girl at work today said how she's 27 and feels so old. I wanted to grab her and say GIVE ME A BREAK!!!!!

      Ugh!

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    2. Someone on Blogger said how she's 40 and feels so old. I wanted to grab her and say GIVE ME A BREAK!!!!!

      Ugh!

      Happy Birthday, Sandra.

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