Thursday, September 20, 2012


It's only a number.

Forty is the new twenty.

You're only as old as you feel.

Except lately I've been feeling like I'm falling apart.  I have the hypothyroidism to deal with.  I swore I wasn't going to go into my forties weighing as much as I do, but thanks to this little diagnosis my wishes and efforts just didn't work out the way I wanted.  I tweaked something in my back a month ago and now the pain comes and goes.  I have tendinitis which gets aggravated from random work...anything from housework to gardening.  Oh yeah, and then there's the sun allergy which prevents me from enjoying the outdoors.  I worry about everything.  I worry that worrying about things draws things to me.  And now I have convinced myself I have reached the age to which "breast health" is a bigger issue.

I cried on Hubby's shoulder tonight.  I sobbed and even then I couldn't let everything go.  He reminded me that there are plenty of people in worse situations than me.  I know that's true.  

I think being sick this week just messed with my head.  I was lonely and sick.


This is not how I wanted to remember turning 40.

Do you remember two years ago?  I celebrated my birthday in the Minor Emergency Clinic.  I had an allergic reaction to something unknown and was covered in hives.

Good times.


A memorable birthday from my childhood is my 10th birthday.  I was able to sign out a ukulele from our school music class for the weekend.  This was terribly exciting to me.  It was also one of the last times I remember both Grandma and Grandpa Dean being there for my birthday.  They gave me a 10 speed orange know, the kind with the curvy handle bars.

Last Saturday, my In Law's hosted a family barbecue.  We had hamburgers, coleslaw, cucumber salad, tomato salad and baked beans.  We sat in the yard in lawn chairs while different people ribbed me about turning forty.  When the weather cooled off we went inside.  There was a chocolate layer cake and a chorus of Happy Birthday.  I told them I was glad they didn't put candles on the cake because it would burn the house down!  Everyone laughed.  I received a gift of a fuzzy white blanket and a new set of drinking glasses which we desperately needed but had already bought for ourselves.  It was fun.  I felt appreciated by people who don't usually show those types of emotions.

Hubby tells me that my present might arrive late.  All I know is that it's arriving from Amazon.  We have reservations at an Italian restaurant for Saturday 5pm.  Il Salici boasts authentic Italian cuisine.  

I have it on good authority that they have cannoli!!!  Birthday Cannoli.  Happy Birthday to me!

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

10 Thought Tuesday ~ Code in da Node ~





1.  One of my favourite movies is You've Got Mail.  These is a great scene.  The book store has just closed and Joe Fox visits Kathleen.....except she is sick.  He takes her daisies.  Daisies are the friendliest flower.

2.  When I am sick I take Buckley's Cold/Flu tablets.  They really work.  I think they are a Canadian thing.  I do not take the liquid.  *gag*

3.  Hawksley Workman has a song about being sick.  He thinks it's kind of cool because people do things for you and you just get to lay around.  

4.  Brandy has returned to her spunky self.  I've just been giving her the cephelaxin pills.  The ear drops were reacting with her and making her throw up and be all weird.  I've gone back to the Purina Beneful doggie food and she loves it.  She's back to eating first thing in the morning.  I feel relieved.

5.  I have a strawberry spinach salad for lunch but I think I'm going to make a cup of soup instead.  Chicken soup is supposed to be good for colds, right?

6.  I think Fudgeo cookies are good too.  Maybe not for colds but for the soul.  There are some in the pantry for after the cup of soup.

7.  My In Laws had a family BBQ on Saturday.  Then they had birthday cake for me.  It was several layers of chocolate cake with a fudgey chocolate frosting between each layer with chocolate frosting and shaved chocolate on top.  *drool*  They gave me a furry blanket and a set of glasses as a gift.  The furry blanket is soft like Brandy.  Brother in Law called me Cruella de Ville.

8.  Hubby will be home tonight.  I think his bus gets in around 10:30.  I was supposed to go out with the girls from work tonight but said I couldn't leave Brandy alone all that time.  It turns out most of us at work are sick anyhow.  I doubt that many are going to go now.  I had really wanted to go to.  *sigh*

9.  Sunday my work is having a party at the Berry Barn.  The Berry Barn is known for Saskatoon Berry concoctions.  The waffles are incredible and feature a waffle bar where you add your own toppings.  I am forfeiting football watching for a waffle bar.

10.  In case you weren't quite aware.....this Saturday is a very special birthday for me.  I don't feel any different.  I feel like me and the number I will be only seems to be a number.  But HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!